What I Got Instead

How can God bear to see us suffer? Why won't he heal everyone who asks for healing? Where is he in our present trouble?

Eileen Sommi, plagued by migraines since childhood, grew up believing her pain was normal and rarely spoke of it. Raised in the Christian faith, she began to silently wrestle with these questions as she prayed for healing. She couldn't understand why God wouldn't take her pain away.

One night, with her husband at work, three children running amok, and a baby crying, Eileen broke down in sobs, her tears landing on the hot dogs she was grilling while knee-deep in grass that hadn't been mowed in weeks. She finally came to the end of her ability to press on with life while her head pounded incessantly. God had to help her find a way out of her pain. She insisted he hold true to his promises.

Her desperation demanded a win, her questions deserved an answer, and her body needed a break.

The next day, she grabbed hold of her pain and stared it straight in the eye. Things were about to change.

In What I Got Instead, you will experience the rollercoaster ride that ranges from hard to humorous as Eileen fights for healing and resolves to come to terms with suffering and the God she loves. You will also share in her frustration and revelation as she boldly confronts the age-old problem of pain and the mystery of faith.