Roundabout

What happens when the life you built around finding your purpose no longer feels like your own?

In the first book of the Roundabout trilogy, Alana Trauczynski traveled the world searching for meaning, with plenty of wrong turns and stories to tell. In the second, the journey turns inward, into territory no plane ticket can help her escape.

Success has brought recognition, but also an emptiness she struggles to understand. A consuming relationship, unexpected motherhood, and panic attacks unravel her sense of who she is. Then public backlash brings another painful question: who are you when other people's stories about you drown out your own?

With disarming honesty and a sense of humor that survives even the messiest moments, Alana explores the distance between understanding yourself and actually changing the way you live. She confronts the need for approval, the patterns that follow us into love, and the exhaustion of trying to hold everything together while quietly falling apart.

Roundabout: A Profound Journey of Deconstruction is a memoir about losing your bearings after believing you had finally found your way. It offers no tidy formula for healing. Instead, it invites readers into the uncomfortable, deeply human process of questioning the identities, relationships, and definitions of success that once made life feel secure.

For anyone who has looked at a life that seems perfectly fine from the outside and wondered, "Why can't I feel at home in it?"