How I Wish To Die...

Evelyn Hart spends her days listening to how others wish to die.

As a hospice counselor in a small coastal town, she sits beside hospital beds and hears final confessions. Regrets are whispered, love postponed, lives half-lived. She listens with grace, with professionalism, with distance.

But when her mother dies unexpectedly, Evelyn is forced to confront the question she has spent years avoiding.

In her grief, she begins a private journal titled How I Wish to Die..., not as a morbid exercise, but as a way to understand what it means to truly live. As she revisits her patients' last wishes alongside letters left behind by her mother, Evelyn begins to see a pattern. Every death wish is also a life wish, unspoken until it is almost too late.

Through quiet days by the sea, the presence of a grieving jazz musician, and the gradual softening of her emotional armor, Evelyn learns that grief does not demand solutions. Love does not arrive loudly. It stays. It listens. It waits.

Tender, reflective, and deeply human, How I Wish to Die... is a novel about grief, presence, and the courage it takes to stop postponing life.