GHOSTS WE CARRY

IMPORTANT NOTICE TO READERS:

An online individual posted a recent negative review on this page, which I have never met, who is the subject of active police reports for cyber harassment directed toward my family and me. His review suggests this memoir is "AI-generated." I want readers to know the truth. Ghosts We Carry is not a story I invented, and it is certainly not a piece of artificial writing. God knows I wish it were fiction. Instead, it is the lived reality of surviving three suicides - my aunt, my cousin, and my fiancé - and trying to build a life in the shrapnel. I wrote this book to support other survivors navigating suicide grief. I encourage readers to judge this memoir for what it is: a hand held out in the dark, grounded in truth and written for those who can barely breathe through their own loss.



GHOSTS WE CARRY

You survived what should have killed you.
This is how you live with it.

When someone you love dies by suicide, the world doesn't just break - it disappears.
There is no map for this kind of grief. No manual. No permission slip for the rage, the silence, or the ache that refuses to leave.

Ghosts We Carry is not a book about "moving on."

It is a raw, lyrical guide to surviving the unthinkable and learning to live again in the shrapnel.

I wrote it in staccato fragments, short breaths, small pieces of clarity, because when you're in the fog of suicide loss, that's all the mind can hold. These pages come straight from my journals. I shaped them into something survivors can absorb, even on the days they can't get out of bed.

I am not a therapist.
I am not a psychologist.
I am lived experience - scarred, shaped, and remade by three suicides that altered the trajectory of my life.

I wrote this book the way I wish someone had written for me.
A voice that doesn't talk down to grieving people.
A companion who doesn't try to fix the unfixable.
A presence that simply says,

You are not losing your mind.
You are grieving the unimaginable.
And you are not alone.

This book is for the ones who stay:

• A lifeline for those haunted by unanswered questions
• A voice for those silenced by shame
• A steady companion for those crawling their way back to life

The memoir is split into three parts - The Detonation, The Aftermath, and The Rebirth - mirroring the way suicide shatters a life, the way the silence settles, and the way light eventually begins to seep back in.

You didn't die the day they did.
You're still here.
And that matters more than you know.

Ghosts We Carry is part memoir, part heart-medicine, part survival manual for anyone navigating suicide grief.

Let me carry you while you can't carry yourself.